So, even though I'm currently typing this at home, after having just drinken my first drink--a glass of Chivas Regal, paired with a cigar, AKA not in a club, not a raging house party in my honor, not in Las Vegas--I'm unabashed to say that goddamn it, i'm happy. Even though Im not indulging in the physical benefits of drinking with friends, family, or a bunch of strangers/soon to be friends in a bar, I'm content with the delaying of all this and accepting the fact that Facebook and text messages can temporarily fill the void. Of blacking out. And end up like this at the end of the night
But if I wished of all the places I COULD be and with all the people I COULD be with right now, I'd just go insane from the thought. Instead, I opt to share with you all while writing this. Drunk.
My first official drink.
And thanks to my best friend, Philip Martinelli, who doesnt have a facebook (but does have a skype account), and his friend John, I got to hang with them over Skype for practically the whole night, playing Left 4 Dead 2 and listening to them play Team Fortress 2 while I waited for computer to download it. Now, some of you might say, "Thats so sad! Youre spending your 21st birthday night AT HOME, playing a VIDEO GAME? Why dont you go out and live? Go out, go to a bar, go to a club, get wasted!" (paraphrase of my sister's phone call at 12:01). My answer? I'd love to. If I could. Being a bad planner and having few friends who I hang out with in Houston, I hardly know where to go and who to go with. I love the idea of getting plastered with friends in a 21st birthday friendly environment, but quite honestly, I'm just not in the right place. If I was in California, I dont think that'd be a problem, but I'm not. So, I choose to not wish for something I cant attain, instead replacing it with the knowledge that one day, that WILL HAPPEN.
And it might even look something like this.
I cant tell you happy it makes me to see you write a witty or non-generic Facebook wallpost. Well, actually I can tell you. Its like taking a shot with you. Or what I imagine taking a shot with you would be like (you know, cuz I've never actually done shots before).
Although Society tells me that I can only be happy at a bar on my 21st, I say otherwise. As someone who's never really fitted Society's pigeonholed mold of what my life should be like, I'm fine with knowing my friends have texted, Facebooked, called, and even skyped me tonight, wishing a happy birthday, and that I will eventually go into a bar, with friends (or family), and have a drink and a good time. So, even though I'm physically alone tonight, I need not worry since technology has allowed for me to be otherwise.
Technology, Chivas, and my friend, Jim.
What's a celebration without a drinking cap?
Cheers!
-Finding Happiness
